it's only been a week. how much can change in a week.
so a week ago i wrote about running into an old acquaintance and how we were going to hang out and catch up, but that it was definitely not a date.
well, i don't know what happened or how or when because it all happened so fast, but it started out as a non-date, and finished up three days later, when his "four days on" started again and he had to go back to work.
oddly enough, there's still no spark, no passionate flames between us, but there's this level of comfortability that i've never had with anyone before. whether we were just listening to music and talking or taking a walk through balboa park, or twining our bodies together between the sheets...there's just this amazing feeling of being "at home" that i have with him. we take each other as we are. i don't know if anything is going to come from this. maybe it's just what both of us need right now. we're both going through transition phases in our lives and maybe we just need to connect for a while with a familiar, friendly face who understands. or maybe there's something deeper there. i have no idea. the nice thing is, we don't need to know. we're both really comfy with the way things are and we'll just take it one day at a time. his "four days on" ends on tuesday and i have enough flexibility that if i pound out a few reports in the next couple of days, i can spend his three days off with him.
the sex is good. it's the first time i've had sex with anyone since dave died. it's been years. the sex with craig is totally different than it was with dave. it's not better and it's definitely not worse, it's just so different. maybe it's him, maybe it's me, maybe it's the combination of both of us. it's good. it's really good. and again, i know i said this before, but if feels like going home when i am wrapped in his arms.
it also makes me so happy that craig and chester adore each other. granted, chester likes pretty much everyone, but that dog is such a special part of my life, that craig definitely earned bonus points when i realized his instantaneous friendship with chester was genuine.
- one week later